Hi ladies,
We just got back from a week long visit to my Moms and Disney world. We had a great time, aside from the fact that I had some very tough feelings I wasnt expecting. We went to my Moms house 5 days post termination for a week and I hadnt been there since.
The first night at her house, I had this strange dream that I had a baby and it was a boy. I told my DH about it and he thinks its an omen for a future prengnacy, but I think it was the baby we lost. For a long time now, Ive felt this last baby was a boy, even though I do not know one way or another. Its just so hard. My EDD would only be 6 weeks away from now..... but this baby could of been born in 3 to 5 weeks (more likely). Its just so not fair..... sometimes the hurt lets up and then bam, out of nowhere I am dealing with the same pain I felt in the days right after we lost the baby. Mh DH doesnt want me to dwell on my dream, but it was so real.. just like the dreams I kept having I felt the baby move around when I would of been 20 weeks along. WHY WHY WHY does my mind mess with me like this???????