Hi everyone, my name's Christine. Some of the moms from the first tri. board probably know who I am. I just wanted to post the news that my 6 week struggle with HG ended on Thursday evening, at 10 weeks pregnant, and though I won the battle for my life, my baby lost that same battle. It was a terrible time that I had, and I hadn't been posting regularly because I was hospitalized for the majority of the past 3 weeks. One thing went wrong, and then another, and then another. I cannot even believe how much went wrong. Picc lines gone bad, feeding tube that didn't work out, a septic staph. infection, which is probably what killed the baby, in my opinion... I was lucky to escape without kidney or heart damage, or death, but I am so heartbroken that I won't get to bring my sweet new baby home at the end of July, despite how hard I fought, and how I prayed. I do feel cheated, at moments, even though I have two beautiful daughters who are overjoyed to have their mommy back home. And I am overjoyed to be with them again, that is certain. I have moments of grat thanks to God, and relief, that I survived, despite how poorly I was doing at the end. (My kidney function tests and potassium levels were warning of soon-to-be devastation to my body, as were my vital signs.) I do know that in two days, I would have been in the ICU, and quite possibly, physically injured beyond decent repair. My OB staff is relieved that "[my] body did what it finally needed to do, to survive, despite how horrible and painful that is." I just CANNOT believe that the HG got so bad in this pregnancy. I'm no stranger to it; I had HG with both my daughters. My first was very difficult - home IV therapy into my 5th month, and I was so scared (and there was so little info. available to me, 7 years ago), that I refused the phenegran they wanted to give me through the IV. The Iv fluids kept me Ok though - I was able to get to my store everyday, and run it for 13 hours. 2nd pregnancy, I took reglan pills, and could hold down fluids OK with them, just not food. I did have a few overnight IV fluid "fuel up" sessions, but it really was a very easy pregnancy, at least in my opinion! This one, however, I just can't figure it out. I guess I am in that early grieving stage - "the Whys" are going to drive me crazy. No matter how many times my very kind and caring OB tells me that I did everything I could, and I know they did everything - zofran max'd out in the IV, combinations of zofran and other anti-emetics, electrolytes, potassium, vitamins and minerals all through the IV. Constant blood work - constant follow-up. When I go the staph infection in my PICC line and the blod cultures came back positive, they started IV antibiotics immediately. I see that as the "turning point". The anitibiotics sent me on a vomiting expedition, unlike anything I've ever experienced, even with HG. And I just could NOT handle any fluids this pregnancy - no matter what I tried. All the "tricks" I'd learned in the first two pregs. did nothing for me, they failed me. I'm just going on&on here, I know that, and thank you all for letting me. I call this "Working through the "WHY" stage..."
Right now, I was wondering if any of you ladies who've had m/c with severe HG still had any nausea while still bleeding from the miscarriage. I had a D&C on Thurs., today is Monday. Yesterday, I had to return to the hospital, to the ER, because I was having intense pain, like labor, and a fever. It turned out that I had a whole lot of clots, and blood was pooling behind them, in my uterus. They did pass on their own within a few hours. The bleeding since then has been much heavier, and my doctor did say that would happen, and to call if it became heavy enough to soak a pad an hour. That hasn't been the case, thankfully. I'm just looking to see if anyone else still felt nauseous, had a touch of HG symptoms for a little while after the miscarriage happened, D&C was performed...? I am getting very worried that there is something really wrong with me, outside of HG, and that this awful sickness is never going to go away completely. I have been eating and drinking, holding everything down - just feels like morning sickness, though. Any words of reassurance or recommendation would be very appreciated. ANd the length of time I can realistically expect for my body to "return to normal". I know emotionally, I have a long way to go. Thank you all for listening. And I am so sorry that any of us have to post on this page. My heart goes out to all of you ladies. Especially those of you who don't have any children yet... don't give up hope...