Hi Lisa,
Please don't worry about sharing Joshua with me. If I couldn't deal, I really wouldn't ask, honest...and that he arrived screaming the day before she was born so tiny and quiet is actually comforting...like someone caught their dream when I couldn't. She was so fleeting.
And thank you for your tears. You have no idea how good it feels to know someone besides me sheds them for her now and then. It's incredibly isolating when your baby dies and everyone thinks she was too young to matter or cry over. Not that I wish you any tears at all....just a weird sort of gratitude for them.
She is with Christ, she is safe, she is living an eternal life of joy....and I even have the blessing of understanding the purpose of her death, or some of the purposes she fulfilled in those 10 short weeks...my little girl has quite the impressive resume. Knowing all this gives me peace and anger isn't an issue at all for me, but I just miss knowing her...I miss her toes...
15 pounds? Man, he's like 5 yo already? At three months, I don't think Christopher had broken 10 pounds...he's a peanut still. Can we get a photo option to see all the babies? I want to see them...but the ones that are born December 2004 need to be posted as 9 pound premies
I am so glad Joshua is here and healthy...and I am incredibly glad you are here to mother all your children.
Thank you again for your kindness.
Love,
Suzanne