.....and why on earth I am gearing up for a second baby! LOL I mean really, maybe I am crazy for thinking about willingly putting myself through this again. I have started on 100 mg of B6 oral each day, and I am charting so we can TTC in January and get our insurance co-pays into one year. But, a part of me is just thinking "Emily, you are crazy for doing this!"
<<<deep breath>>>
Mostly, I am just sick and tired of hearing from E_V_E_R_Y_O_N_E that "every pregnancy is different and this time will be better." I feel like everyone around me is going to be really dissappointed if/when it isn't better. Plus, when I was PG before DH and I were living over in Portland, so none of my family really got to see what was going on. They only saw me in the latter part of my PG when I was only throwing up 3 or 4 times a day.
This board makes me feel better though. When I read everyone else in the same TTC position typing out exactly how I feel too, I at least feel understood and not alone. And, thanks to you all, I am getting prepared. And I will try unisom with the next so maybe that will help. I did do prednisone but it was very early in my pregnancy (at 6 weeks I think, 2 weeks after my first missed period) but it was only a two week taper, so maybe I can try a different protocol with it.
A part of me just feels kinda weird knowing how sick I may/will be and knowing that I willingly put myself there... It is amazing how much we love our children isn't it?