Hyperemisis and the loss of your child.
Posted: Jan 20, 2005 3:58 pm
I had been in the hospital for the first four months of my pregnancy with hyperemisis and then had home health care and total IV therapy at home for the next three. I was 29 weeks pregnant when I stopped feeling my baby move. The doctor kept telling me babies do that sometimes, but I (unable to trust my physician) went to the hospital and found out my baby had died. I delivered him the next day and my heart has been broken since. I think about him always. My doctor told me that my placenta pulled away from the wall of my uterus causing Caleb to die. No matter how long you wait it does not get better. Especially when you sit and wonder if your doctor was telling the truth. You see, after I delivered Caleb my ob doctor came in the room and told me that some people have autopsies done but he would advise against it because there was nothing wrong with me or Caleb, that he did pull away from the uterine wall and there was no explanation for it. I believed him until I had to get copies of my hospital and medical records for something else and he put that he advised us to have and autopsy but we refused. Now, not only do I think about my baby all the time, but I wonder if there was something that could have been done to stop it. I don't know how other woment feel, but I know that I hurt always. I miss him always and I cry constantly even though he died on August 5, 2004. I just can not let go. My parents want me to have my tubes tied because my hyperemisis seems to get worse with each pregnancy. I don't know what to do. I know that everyone worries about me when I am pregnant, but I want so badly to have another baby. My husband and I have no children with each other so I really want one. I also do not know if I can handle losing another baby. And really wish there was someone else to talk to that has been through this.