I am done. I have no doubt, I am DONE! But I keep dreaming I am PG,at the end, of course. Big and ready to give birth. Sometimes, in my dream, I happen to find a baby somewhere. Last night, I happened upon a baby who's name was stitched onto her hair, like a quilt. Raqquel.
I work with (am replacing temp) a woman who is due next month. Every one rubs on her belly, I constantly have to remind myself that she is pg. I can not (can NOT) bring myself to topuch her belly. Sometimes it is because she is up, and moving, and eating, and drinking...but really...I think it is because a little baby girl will be coming out of that belly and I just dont want to face it. They have picked a name, and that is how she refers to her bump...makes it harder. Some day that baby will breath, cry, smile. And She will push that baby out and hold her on her chest. atch that first breath, feel that first suck...And I'll never know that again.
Same thing with Dh's niece. She will have her boy in Feb. Whole other wound to pierce. A boy, something I will *never* know.
Any one else get this, even though they are SURE they are done?