But DH insists that this will be our last child. He is afraid that I can't physically make it through another HG pregnancy (and honestly, I'm inclined to agree with him.)
He has even gone so far as to say that if I get pregnant again, he will not help with the pregnancy, because he doesn't want any more kids. He says he doesn't want to be mean, he just wants me to understand that he absolutely doesn't want any more. And honestly, I would feel really bad about basically making him a single parent of two kids so that I could deal with another pregnancy...plus taking care of me (driving me to hospital/Dr. appts, bringing me popsicles and ice chips and my weird random food requests...)
He says that he is happy to have two children and just wants his wife back to enjoy our family together. And I respect that. He makes totally valid points.
But I always imagined myself with three kids...and especially if this baby turns out to be another boy, I'm afraid I'm going to want to try again, because I've always wanted a daughter.
I just don't know how to deal with these feelings. DH refuses to talk about it. He says that as far as he is concerned, two kids is all we're having, end of discussion.