The decision to limit family size, is a personal journey for each one of us........and a hard one at that.
The problem is, we dont know how to interperete the emotions we have on the subject. I would like to share my personal experience on this. I hope it will offer a little comfort and maybe some insight on the matter.
After my second hg pregnancy, I didnt know if I wanted to be done, but that actually was not true. I didnt know if I wanted to face HG again.
In my heart, deep down inside, I knew my family wasnt complete. I pondered and pondered trying to concieve, when finally, God made the decision for me. What a relief, that I didnt have to go back and forth with all of the what if's of another pregnancy!
My third hg pregnancy, was by far, my worst. The hg started early and did not let up until 2 days pp. After giving birth, I KNEW I WAS DONE. NO QUESTIONS! I knew I could NEVER face hg again, nor could I put my family through it!
I had all kinds of health related issues as a result of my hg. I know that my body would not handle another hg pregnancy. I think sometimes you probably do want the option of more biologcal children, but you are right to consider what another pregnacy would do to you, in terms of your own health.
If you think that it could potentially take you away from the child/children you have already worked so hard to have, then you really have to weigh out whether or not it is truly worth the *RISK*.
It is so hard to make it final, but if you know that it is the best thing for you and your family, you wont have any regrets about it.
I know that we dont!
I wish you comfort and peace of mind as you face making a decision on prevention options.