ok, I just realised how similar this is to my last post, on this board so I won't go there again.
I am pis#ed off at my body. I am p*ssed off at the medical system. I am p*ssed off at all the fluffies in the whole g*damn world.
I got invited to a baby shower today. I like the person - she's from my church and I think I will like to go.
Anyway, I am mostly p*ssed off at my otherwise wonderful husband, which is very unusual for me, it takes a lot to rile me. He just wont talk about it all.
I feel so lost and empty about this. I so badly want more kids - a case of forbidden fruit perhaps? I cannot and will not go thru HG again.
I was looking at the adoption sites in Australia for both local and international adoption. There are several reasons this will take a long time (not in any order)
1) Very expensive, especially international
2) Lack of babies locally
3) I can't even apply till I am 27 at the Australian end (this is 4 1/2 years away)
4) Most countries have a 2-year waiting period, which means I am looking at about 7 years before I even get started
5) Some have infertility as a requirement (I have no problem getting and staying pregnant.....just hate the pregnancy)
I guess I just feel so ripped up because everything seems like so far away and there is nothing much I can do in the meantime, and Justin won't talk about it.
I know that I have to put all the energy into Jazmin and look after her and be thankful for the one I've got etc etc but that just isn't cutting it at the moment.
Thanks for letting me vent since Justin won't even listen atm and doesn't understand that I can't just "get over it"