Thank you for your reply. We are going through the same thing it sounds.
Part of of me does feel a little relieved to have somebody else say no. That way like you said I'm not constantly thinking about it. Maybe I just want to prove I can do it again for number 3 - which was our original number. However, I too am young (31 this Saturday), and I think that has part to do with it. I have met many women out there that would have had more if they were younger. It seems sad to be done so young, but I guess just because you can doesn't mean you should. tee hee There are benefits to being young when the nest is empty as well.
I too know I'd be fine in the long run. Heck, I felt guilty when my son came along because my daughter and I had played such a beautiful song for two years. Labor and Delivery was always a miracle for me - I don't know if HG made it that way. But I cherish those hours of dilation and pushing. I've even considered becoming a L&D nurse when the kids are older so I can be involved in it all the time.
I'm the type that would really regret feeling I didn't have enough time for each child, though. Type A personality!
As far as going on, please type away. The more I read the better I feel. I truly love my husband, and we are best friends. I will like having passed these ages (terrible twos and dramatic fours) the last time and going on dates more often. Once Ethan is trained, no more diaper bags.
I don't want to be 50 and wish I had more, but I don't want to be 50 and have pushed my husband into more. I guess the only thing to do is concentrate on my two angel babies. Perhaps volunteering etc. and being around others would help.