So, I will admit that post partum has been a lot harder this time around than with Madison. I am however doing good on the overall.
Katie has been a VERY challenging baby. Health issues.... collicky (which is really allegy and reflux issues).... crying for hours and hours at a clip. And of course there is Madison who still wants Mommy.....
not to mention, sleep..... does ANYONE know what that is
Im on this crazy diet where I cant eat the following: anything with dairy, soy, wheat, corn and Im supposed to avoid sugar. We have Katie on 2 reflux meds now - pepcid and something similar to reglen (to help her stomach empty out). She IS doing better.... but is still so very very needy...
Of course, she is a preemie.... and even more demanding than a full term baby.
Several thoughts have passed through my head... but many of the WHY did I ever try so hard to have her? But, those thoughts have mostly passed, as she isnt screaming all day anymore..... (which is about enough to make you want to jump off a cliff at times).
I also hired a Mothers helper 2 afternoons a week for Madison. That alone took some of the stress off me.
Defeintly had MUCH more tears post pregnancy this time.... anxiety... but, its defiently getting better. I even feel better physically this time.... which I was worried about, since I was on so much bed rest.
And, the only other thing I have going on is I ended up in the ER last week due to major stomach pains.... and sorry if TMI, diarea where none of my food was digested (pooping chewed up food.... Sorry so gross). After a catscan, they told me nothing was wrong, a virus.... but thats the 2nd time in 2 weeks it happened (and NO ONE else in my family had the same virus.... strange no????). My gut tells me its something to do with my gastritis.... and of course I had a melt down worrying what ELSE Hg did to my poor body. So, I scheduled a physical (which wont be till May.... next available, can you beleive????), and hopefully I can get all checked out.
And, my baby in heaven has been constantly on my mind lately. Ive seen a few babies that were born around when my due date was, and I keep thinking, I shouldnt have an 8 week old..... I should have an 8 month old.
My woes are nothing comapared to most of yours... but Id thought Id just share. (((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))) to all you ladies. One day at a time ......