by rjdecker » Mar 03, 2006 3:36 pm
Chasidy,
When I started out bfing Michael, he didn't do well at all with the medication I am on. But I have to have it. I would fall apart if I didn't have it. And my other kids were suffering because mommy was tired, and anxious and onry and Michael was screaming all the time. My NP told me that bfing is good for baby, but sometimes it isn't the right answer. Mom has to be able to care for her children. As soon as I gave Michael a bottle, it was amazing the difference in all of us. I was able to relax and let someone else feed him, and I was able to do other things, like hug my other kids, who really needed me.
I did get crackered the other day. But I am pretty proud of myself. I spoke up. My friend was complaining that she has to go bf whenever something good is happening and I nodded my head. But then she said she doesn't think a bottle is good and she wouldn't dare give her baby a bottle, that bfing was best. I just looked her straight in the eye and said, "I didn't have a choice, Michael had to have a bottle." It made her shut right up. She knows why I am bottle feeding, not because I want to, but because I have to. yes, I felt guilty and cried over it for a time, but I am so much happier. I feel so much better, and so does Michael. He was really miserable and it hurt to know I was causing it!
I am so glad that you are finally being listened to. It is about time! I am so glad you are getting some help.
Jenny
Jenny
Nathan, Megan, Amy, Kimmie, and Michael + 4 birds, 4 fish, 1 turtle, and 1 dog!
We live in a zoo!