I don't want to admit it but I have to. DH has already had a V and I was ok with it, I guess I still am but I just kind of didn't want to admit it. If we didn't say it,it wasn't true.
Truth (I ahve to write this for my own good) We are done and won't have anymore children.
Cecilya is beautiful and is our miracle.
Sometimes I feel guilty for being in pain that she she will be an only because she is such a blessing. But I do feel that way. I wanted two. DH wanted two. My parents wanted two (or more) grandkids.
There are times that I feel like a failure because my body couldn't handle being pg. I look at my cousins (both had fluffy pg) and their beautiful boys and think why couldn't that have been my pg. Is it wrong to be jealous of a good pg? I listen to them planning for more kids and want to scream at them to just shut up I can't handle it. And then I feel petty for feeling that way.
I HATE HG
Ok its down in writing. I've said it it's true.
Thanks
This site and all of the phenomenal women on it is an absolute blessing.
I love all you.
Thankyou for your compassion and just everything.
Erika
Mom of Cecilya and two angels in heaven