I have a history of depression and now that i am pg and have hg it have returned. I'm always yelling at my b/f and i feel like i hate him and don't want him around me. Some days i wake up and get upset that i am still alive or even that the baby is still alive. The other day the doctor was looking for the heart beat and at first he couldn't find it and i kind of felt hope that he wouldn't find it. I know that sounds horrible and i feel horrible to have thoes thoughts. I don't know what to do. Should i call my doctor and make an appt. to talk with him or just fight it. I'm afraid to say anything to anyone because i don't want them to say i am going to be a unfit mother. I'm afraid that maybe i well be an unfit mother. I am very afriad of ppd. I feel so lost and alone. If anyone has advice please write to me.
Hollie
due july 22